<<Hide the feeling deeply

Though I've believed many facts,rules and beliefs stated in many instructive books since I was a little girl,I don't have the ability to tell what true love is from many kinds of feelings at the present age.For the reason that live alone for so many years,I am not confident any more that I can live with others.I am not sure if you could accept me since I am a serious and bookish girl,and I will be the same all my life.

I am not sure if there is pure love in the world. I just know I will be happy if you were happy.

I don't know what to do. I just want to hide my feeling deeply.>>

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Edited version:
Hiding my feelings

Probably because I have studied too much all my life, I can no longer tell what true love is. Having lived alone for so many years, I am not sure if I can live together with another person any more. And I doubt if you would like the bookish and serious me.

I am not sure if true and pure love does exist in this world. All I know is that if you are happy, I will be happy too.

Meantime I will just hide my feelings for you deep inside me.