Nice to see you writing here in English for the first time. And what you have written is nearly error-free, haha.

I will respect your wish, and will not write another such open letter any more in future. As a matter of fact, I do not think I can encourage you any more than what I already have.

Just want to leave behind some pieces of practical advice for you:
1. Please try to organize the diary articles you have written systematically and store them in a removable hard disk or CDRW. Best if you can use a database program to store it. If possible please categorize your articles on the basis of their themes, like "romance", "sorrows", "pleasant surprises", "hard luck stories"..etc The idea is that you can readily and systematiclly present them to any interested publisher who just might suddenly come your way.

2. Try to learn more about English writing by reading some English paperbacks or novels. Continue to buy and watch your D9's, but try to watch movies that will help you to think and write better.

3. Accept the fact that you are different, and that your career path has to be different from most others. Never mind what others will think or say; if you procastinate too much, you just might never dare to do what you are destined to do with your life. If you start earlier, even if you do not succeed and have to give up, you can always start again to look for another job, or just try to find and marry a rich man.

Best of luck!